Dear Fellow Writer,
Can you not see just how exquisite the story within you is?
It has been given to you because nobody else can tell it exactly the way that you can.
Every single experience you have been through, from the deep despair that nearly broke your spirit, to the rapturous that carried you to the brink of ecstasy, and all the mundane shades of every-day life in between; they have all left a memory within your cells.
Their very imprint remains on your skin.
Write about them.
Ignore the pain. Fight the hurt that threatens to strangle you in memories.
Give them life.
Somewhere, somebody is waiting to hear, no, needs to hear, the story within you.
Your story is calling to you.
The old man reached up with feeble hands. His unseeing eyes briefly lit up.
A weak smile on his face, “You’ve come,” he breathed as his life escaped the chains that had held him.
“It happens,” the nurse comforted his wife, “chemicals in the dying brain sometimes cause visions…” as a single white feather landed on the bed.
Her legs, muscles atrophied, were useless by day, but when she stepped over the threshold of sleep; pushing the veil between worlds aside, she ran through the meadow of sweet grass until the moon bade farewell.
Her withered legs wet with dew in the morning.
There are mornings I wake up tired.
When the busyness of life has consumed me even in my dreams.
I come to you quietly with exhausted heart and give you my very last coins.
of little worth.
There are many ways in which to spend the last I have to give.
But, when I lay it silently before Your feet, I hear the tired echoes of other women through generations.
Mothers, clutching scuffed dreams.
And I know,
I am not alone.
When all I have, is all I give,
it is enough.
Darkness was falling.
The shadows alive with evil.
Her strength failing, she had been struggling to free herself for hours.
Abandoned by the others, she had given up too. But then scarred hands found her, the lost one, and carried her home.
She named you Jabez.
When wave after wave of the searing heat that had ripped through her belly and skin, had finally cooled and she, exhausted, could finally hold you in her arms, she looked at you and said,
‘I gave birth to him in pain.
Call him, Jabez.
He makes sorrowful.
He causes pain.’
I often wonder, ‘Why?’
A mother forgets the pain of birth.
But you, born in misery, a maker of sorrow, you carried that with you.
Through the years.
Every time your name was called.
Did you ever wonder, why?
Did you silently long for the every-day names of your playmates?
I see you.
I see your heart determine not to fail.
I see a young man steadfastly refuse to give in to that which crushed his mother’s heart.
That, which also longed to crush his.
I see you fight not to settle for the destiny that you were named for.
Knowing there’s more.
Knowing that words have power, great power, but never as much power as the One who could breathe hope into a tired spirit.
The One Who longs to speak life into the dry bones of the heart.
Thousands of years after your name was written on a scroll.
I see you.
I hear what the bible does not say.
Man of great honour.
You taught me that I too could shrug off a hand-me-down cloak too ill-fitting for my shoulders.
You showed me the way to say, ‘No.’
I shall not settle for sorrow, though I might be named for it.
And there are many ways to name a child.
I shall not be satisfied with misery, though it might have been a companion for the generations before.
I shall not, forever, carry the bitter disappointments of another.
It is not my load to carry.
It will never be enough, and it will always be too heavy.
And this life has more.
Because He is enough, I can go with outstretched hands and ask for more.
The broken dreams of our mothers were never meant to guide us home.
And there is hope.
There is so much more.
Lift up your head.
Shake off that cloak.
It was never yours, to begin with.
‘Jabez was more honourable than his brothers. His mother had named him Jabez, saying, “I gave birth to him in pain.” Jabez cried out to the God of Israel, “Oh, that you would bless me and enlarge my territory! Let your hand be with me, and keep me from harm so that I will be free from pain.” And God granted his request.’
1 Chronicles 4:9-10
© 2017. Liezel Graham. All rights reserved.
“Look at my scars,” she whispered, “I feel so ugly.”
“Don’t hate your scars,” He gently replied, “Your scars are guiding lights that draw those who are still bleeding from the same wounds. Your scars give them hope.”